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| Date: | 07-Jan-10 At: 02:29 AM |
| Subject: | Life..... |
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| It's been a while and things are......well......great! I am doing what I want, when I want to do it and not let anyone's opinions get in my way. Life is great and I couldn't ask for more!!!! | |
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| Mood: | Peachy Keen!!! |
| Date: | 08-Sep-09 At: 11:58 PM |
| Subject: | Two weeks down.... |
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| It's been two weeks since school started and I was left here on my own. Life has been tough, but I have come to realize the strength I possess and I am making it. From time to time it gets lonely and I miss all the friends that I left, but I am also happen for the opportunity for the new experiences and challenges I will face while I am down here. I do wish the past would have been different...but you live and learn and make changes to better your future. All I can do is keep my head up and keep moving forward no matter the challenges that are laid before me. I thank the people in my life that helped me realize these things, even though it may have been through difficult and painful ways, and helped me on my road to self discovery.
Classes have jumped right into work and I will have to push myself and be all that I know I can be. Coocher helped me realize that I am way smarter then I give myself credit for and if I only put my mind and heart into it, I will achieve great things and reach my goals. Thank you and I love you coocher for pointing me in the right direction, even though things didn't work out for us, I will always remember you as someone who believed in me and pushed me to be all that I could. Well that's it for tonight...I am going to come back and visit on the 20th for a shrimp dinner with my friends...I miss everyone and thank you all for all your help and support when it was needed, even though it may have not been needed. ^_^ Sabes ^_^ | |
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| Mood: | Peaceful |
| Date: | 16-Aug-09 At: 10:50 PM |
| Subject: | Last week.... |
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| This is my last week in coon rapids. A lot has crossed my mind and things have happened recently. There is a lot of pain that I am leaving here and hope that the pain will stay too. Some people have changed and I hope they are happy with that change. I will miss everyone who was with me until I left here and hope to stay in contact with them. I am willing to open my home to the people that are willing to call me their friend, and not stab me in the back when it's most convenient for them. I will be home periodically and I am always willing to talk day or night if anyone needs to. And with that, I wish you all a good life while I am away and hope that all your dreams and desires come true...
~Sabes~ | |
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| Mood: | Nervous |
| Date: | 03-Aug-09 At: 8:56 PM |
| Subject: | FML: you think you know someone... |
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| You think you know someone...They tell you things only to have you believing in them. Then about a week later, that person totally goes against what they told you. WTF. More and more I am finding reasons to distrust this person, more than I normally would have. Today was the last straw though. I'm sick of people's bullshit and refuse to put up with it anymore. I used to be the one people came to when they needed help, and I would always be there. Those times are over. People took advantage of my generosity and they ruined it for everyone else. You want my help, my love, my time...then you got to give me something in return. Life doesn't let you get freebies and other things without giving up something in return. I am so disgusted with the person you have become and hope that maybe you do fall on your ass to feel some of the pain I have been going through the past couple months. I think this will fail and you will find yourself alone with no one to turn to...but don't take my word for it. This is something you need to do on your own and experience it as well. In reality I am terrified that I am moving 120 miles away, but at the same time, I will be further from your memory and I wont have to be cautious and looking around every corner making sure you aren't there. I will live in a new area that is beautiful and pure and I can try and forget you, since obviously this is what you have done. So for now...this blog is updated and I don't give a fuck if i offend anyone...freedom of speak bitch. So fuck you, fuck the world, fuck anyone that stands in the way of my happiness! | |
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| Mood: | FML |
| Date: | 15-Jul-09 At: 08:30 PM |
| Subject: | The End... |
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| I have come to realize that life is nothing but disappointment. You can try all you want to make amends or fix things that were broken, but in the end, it isn't worth it because it doesn't work out. I have also come to not trust anyone anymore because my trust has been broken beyond repair. I only hope one day things will be fixed and maybe life will continue on and I will be a happier person. Because now, I am miserable, depressed. So what else is new. This is all pathetic and weak and I know I need to grow up and all this shit, no need to remind me. I brought it on myself, I too know that. From an outside perspective, I see this as all a bad story. A breakup because of actions which reflected that of someone too scared to show their true emotions, and an unwillingness to change for the other. I also see someone who went to someone because they were close, and gave them the comfort that the other one could not. Or maybe it is also because this is the first time someone else has looked at them through a lovers eyes. And once that happens, all others opinions and thoughts go out the window, and you start to become the person you promised yourself you would never become. Only now it's too real and they may not see it, but those who know them the best see it clear as day. Hopefully one day the blind will be able to see what people have been telling them for a long time. Comfort will only get you so far, but true love, that will take you on an endless adventure. Maybe one day you will see and listen, and until that day comes I can only hope that they wont every regret anything they have done. Because there is always a truth in what you say or do. It defines who you are as a person so make sure it's an image you would like yourself portrayed as. The best of luck and I hope they are everything you think they are, despite what others have been trying to say. | |
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| Mood: | Rock Bottom |