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Fuckskerseses

Date: 22-Jun-08 At: 08:22 AM
Subject: Fuckskerseses
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Well been a while since I blogged.
Let's see here...
Well since last time, I got a motorcycle, tuned it, and ride it all the time.
Other than that, life has been pretty shitty lately. Customers keep threatening me, My mom and my grandma aren't talking to each other and I got pulled into it. Oh, I got the cops called on me cause the neighbors refuse to raise their kids, and let them run wild in the streets, so I stepped in and told the bastards to stay out of the street when a car is coming. Granted I was rather intense in my approach, but if the parents wont tell them no to be in the street, somebody had to. Now its Sunday morning, and last night I drank a lot, and as usual(meaning even when we are sober) Sable got all pissy about shit cause I am not attached to her hip all the time. So she just hid upstairs then when I asked what was wrong she told me I was too drunk to care about her. Well the thing is I was pretty damn buzzed, maybe drunk, but the fact remains that I was coherent and actually wanted to know what was bothering her. Well she tells me that she fucking made me dinner, and starts crying. I never even told her I was hungry, let alone to make me dinner. Sorry I don't check on you every ten seconds Dear! Sorry that I like to hang out with my friends and let loose once a week, Sweetheart! I mean come on! So then I went outside to get away from the bullshit and she follows me, then she follows me downstairs, then she badgers me to talk to her even though I told her to leave me alone. She kept pushing it and pushing it. then I fucking snapped. Yelling at her and telling her we might as well have a go here since my parents have to listen to the shit, why not my friends?!
Basically, the night was good, then drinking, then worse. I don't even know what to say to these people when they get up. I mean, what can I say? I'm sorry I am retarded? or maybe I should say nothing. Then there's Joe, and I like Joe, he's cool. After I yelled at Sable, he and Khoi went to find her as she stormed out. I know I am an asshole, and a dick and pretty much make everyone around me miserable, but it seems like every time shit goes down between she and I, I am given all the blame. It feels like everyone is mad at me for it, like Joe. He says hes mad at me when he got back. But was anyone mad at her? Well if they were I didn't hear it. I know that people are mad at me right now though. Which is fine cause like I said, I am an Asshole. I don't really deserve the life that's been given to me, look what i do with that gift. I fucking squander it and ruin parties and make people mad.
In short, for those who read this, or are still reading, If I ruined your life somehow, I am sorry because if we merely bumped elbows in a hallway, I am sure it ruined your life since I do that to everyone I come into contact with. I can't put it into words how much I feel I fucked up, nor can I put into words how much I fucking hate my life. But maybe that's what life is, shit. Shit shoveled on more shit until your back fucking breaks and you die. At the rate I'm going I will be there soon enough.
I think that's enough venting for now, so...
bye?
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Mood: NG

BOOOOYAH

Date: 17-Apr-08 At: 08:13 PM
Subject: BOOOOYAH
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i think anyway...
I am going to check out some bikes this weekend, and I will most likely get some new wheels. I cant wait to get a motorcycle. I want to save money, and they are bad-ass to ride. The one I really want is a Kawasaki ninja, and i found one cheap. cant wait to see it and test drive it Friday. YAY FOR ME!
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Mood: SKEET-A-LICIOUS

Days gone by...

Date: 27-Nov-07 At: 08:23 PM
Subject: Days gone by...
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Well several days have gone by now, and i am more calm. Sable and i have talked. I had already decided on my own that it isnt exaclty fair of me to expect her not to "loose it" once and a while, becasue i do it too. (just ask Kenji and Faeresse). she doesnt knwo why she reacted that way, and nor do I. However, i told her that i am not ready to commit 100% to us. I am willing to try to work out our differences, on the basis that i dont want to throw away three years with someone. So i am going to try with her again. But it will be more like a new relationship, starting over one could call it. However, my hopes are not high, i (and she) know that it may not work. We are prepared for such an event. So that being said, despite my supreme embarassment this weekend, i am giving her a chance since she has given me several as have my friends. although, its the last chnce for us. If we cant make it work in a reasonable amount of time, things are done. We are giving one another space now.

Oh! and Kenji. the mood icons appear to be broke, and the "blog box" it improperly aligned.
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Mood: moot

Oh fuck my ass! call me a bitch, then spit on me and say its youtube material

Date: 25-Nov-07 At: 06:27 AM
Subject: Oh fuck my ass! call me a bitch, then spit on me and say its youtube material
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So this weekend, my GF was sick. So i told her not to come to the party, but she did. then she walked out cause instead of taking care of her i was enjoying the party to which she should not have attended. Thats fine, if it would have enede there, i could have recovered. But then, she came back, she tried to draw me into an argument in front of my friends. I tried not to get into it, i stayed indifferent so that i wouldnt get angry or drawn in. Instead of taking the hint that i didnt care at the moment, she jumps me. Right on top of Faeresse, and threw a ring at me. even when asked to leave by Kenji, she just sat there. FUCKIT! i got up and went to the other room. Then she wouldnt stop accusing me, FUCKIT! i left the house so as to avoid a more embarassing scene for myself. Then she followed my up and down the streets of Coon Rapids. I really wanted to hit i really did. But i couldnt as i dont hit the females, but i almost made the exception. Finally she left with the idea we still had a chance(until i said it she wouldnt leave me alone) then the whole time i was mad, so i hit trees, the curb, the wall at Amaco/BP or whatever the fuck it is. So now my hand is all fucked, its hard to type, i have no GF, no girl in their right mind would look at no less talk to me. I am ugly as hell, (just look at my profile pic) and i work at a shitty gas station cause i am a fucking tard that cant do more than press a button to turn the pump on or off. the customers i have to deal with get mad at me for the prepay issue, or for no 100s/50s at night, and then i blow up at them, so i think i will lose my job soon, i prolly cant afford to get people actually decent gifts this year cause full time school is also eating my soul. I feel so god damned royally fucked i cant stand it. All i have to say at this point amidst the bullfuckingshit is - THANKS FOR ALL THE WASTED YEARS!!!
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Mood: EMO!!