View Users Weblog
View Weblogs of:

Faeresse


Level 11 GAAARBAGE DAAAY

nyam

Date: 22-Sep-08 At: 01:16 PM
Subject: nyam
Entry:  
Konbonwa, Kat desu.

After a few weeks of intense japanese study, that's about all I can put together. :P This stuff is really difficult. I'm learning primarily how to read the alphabet. I'm beginning to recognize symbols in Hiragana, though I can't put meaning to them yet. It can be frustrating, but it's turning out to be a really awesome learning experience.

I have a group of 8 or so Japanese friends on Second Life, and though they can't speak english all that well, they're really helping me understand what some things mean. They made a flash card game that I have been using to learn symbols. One other friend likes to practice speaking English over voice, so we help each other understand vocabulary while speaking. I couldn't say anything significant, but it's fun anyway. Between these people, my books, and the internet, hopefully I have enough to become relatively fluent.

In much more interesting news, Dan and I are engaged now. He proposed to me while tubing down the river at his cabin, with all our half-drunken friends having a good time. It was a happy thing, with a party afterward that included my family. Khoi brought stuff for B-52's (which were delicious), but he had too many himself and ended up setting the picnic table on fire. It went out quickly aftewards, but it was still awesome.

So now comes the wedding.. and I have no idea when, how, or where. I'm crazy excited, but the whole situation is just intimidating. He said I can take control of the wedding plans, but I don't really know what I want, so I've got some thinking and research to do I guess.

Other than that, I'm taking a math class I'm doing relatively well in, and that's it. Life is rather dull.
Privacy: 6
Mood: Optimistic

FUCK THE GOVERNMENT

Date: 27-Nov-07 At: 02:15 AM
Subject: FUCK THE GOVERNMENT
Entry:  
Not really. The government's actually okay. Good work guys.

Anyway. It's been a really messed up couple weeks. Not in a bad way, just in an unusual way.

I went deer hunting with Dad, Grandpa, Mike, Suzie and my siblings. I don't really shoot things, just there to sit in the woods and reconnect for a while. That was a fun time.

Dan and I had our three year anniversary earlier this month, then my birthday came and went. I hate having a birthday around the holidays. It makes it almost impossible to plan anything with friends or family. Oh well. I got some cool stuff, including a candle, a DVD, and tickets to see Motion City Soundtrack and Fair to Midland.

I've realized two things about myself that I need to work on fixing. The pain in my back that I've had since 6th grade, for one. I had thought I injured myself and it wasn't going away or something. But now that I look back, my test for scoliosis is positive, and any extensive strain on my hip and pelvic area would potentially aggravate my body. It makes sense to me now, but I don't know what to do about it. Chiropractors can't help me. So far stretching and strengthening exercises seem to be working though, so I'll keep that up.

Another thing, is anxiety. Things have gotten a lot better since middle school, but now I feel like I'm kind of at a standstill. It's not that bad, but it's enough to inhibit me from doing things that I enjoy. The more I try to fight past it or overcome it, the more intense the burning stomach ache and the chaotic thoughts become, and it's just defeating. I'll have to decide what I want to do about it.

Anyway, thanksgiving was good. First we went to dan's grandma's. I find it hard to pay attention when she talks. But I gave it a good effort. Next was his aunt's house, and there I did have a good time. Good food and nice people, as well as a potential job opportunity as an illustrator at her graphic design company. That would be so cool! Then was dinner with my family, which was yummy and fun as usual.

The next day the normal group of people gathered at dan's house for gaming goodness. The night quickly turned to shit when Sable threw a tantrum and crushed me in her lust to choke the life out of Coocher. He took off for a while, I assumed to diffuse the situation, though I don't know manymore details than that, except it's pretty much over between them. Honestly, I'm glad. There was too much drama, and he was unhappy- the way she acts, she's probably unhappy too.

Saturday was the Motion City concert, which was ultra spiffy. I had so much fun, and youtube totally does not do their live performances justice. They're funny people.

Today we got a new router, hopefully signal won't drop every 5 seconds now. Yay.

I think I've about covered everything. Yayzors.
Privacy: 6
Mood: sleepy

tgit

Date: 20-Sep-07 At: 02:46 AM
Subject: tgit
Entry:  
I don't think anything could have prepared me for what I walked into at clinicals today.

I did change diapers. I did give a shower. I cleaned dentures, assisted her to eat, wheeled her around when she needed it, and did the same with my partner's patient.

None of that was suprising to me. What was most distressing, was the emotional anguish most of these people are going through. The image of a man sitting in the day room will be burned into my mind for quite some time; oxygen in his nose, and his hands shaking against his armchair, head tilted to the sky while he cried and moaned for the family that was either dead, too far away to visit, or just never bothered.. I don't know his situation. I could make his life more comfortable. But it's disappointing to know that I will never be able to provide for the emotional need for someone in such a confusing and frightening atmosphere.

Clinicals went as well as they could have I think. It was hard. Very hard, with lots of pressure, and needs to be met. Plus, it was difficult to walk for 6 hours straight, especially without anything to eat or drink beforehand. My entire body is aching and I'm mentally/emotionally spent.

I tried to sleep, but the thought of the old man just kept haunting me. I need to get up at nine tomorrow.. *sighs* I'm not going to be in very good shape for clinicals again tomorrow. I hope I get to see dan. Our weekend was cut short last time, and this time I'm going to be in Wisconsin again- he mentioned something about having dinner tomorrow. That would rock.

We got a new kitten! I don't know what his name is. He has kitty cough and roundworm, so he has to be quarantined and treated for two weeks, but that doesn't make him any less omfgcyoooooooot.
Privacy: 6
Mood: blah

:( Sick with something baaaad

Date: 06-Sep-07 At: 08:42 AM
Subject: Sick with something baaaad
Entry:  
Jeebus. I've been sick with something for a couple days, I could tell by a minor sore throat and almost constant dizzy feeling. But it hasn't been that bad, so I've still gone to school and stuff. Good thing I wore gloves yesterday doing mouth care O.o whatever this is, it's stealing my water. I got suddenly, randomly thirsty and hungry last night after going to bed. I felt shaky and stuff. So I ate and drank three water bottles, then this morning, had an episode in the bathroom and now I'm uber thirsty again. Ugh. No school today for me. Good thing I think we were only doing a potluck thing, nothing important.

School is going well I think. My teacher is decent (although impatient and tends to forget describing details sometimes), and the only person I don't like in the class so much is the akward guy that I had to practice bed baths with. He apparently can't have fun during a class because it distracts from learning. No combining of the two. Pecadores, how dare you.

Uhm.. other than that, not a lot going on. May go out with Kynaru this Saturday to a picnic, I'm assuming fur-related. Hopefully I'll be feeling better.

Norris is awesome.

And... yeah. Have a good day.

Oh btw, a very cool chinese song. http://www.sooostar.com/Jan-Lam/content.asp?ArticleID=11551
Privacy: 6
Mood: sick

craaaaaaaaaaaap

Date: 11-Jun-07 At: 06:57 AM
Subject: craaaaaaaaaaaap
Entry:  
Well. Friday's news at the doctor was disheartening. After about four days of a sore throat and sinus issues, I made an appointment just in case. So they took another xray of my chest, and of course, I have pneumonia again. So more antibiotics.. I dunno how much good it's gonna do. My last ones were supposed to be uber- they kicked my stomach's ass that's for sure. These are just amoxicillin, but a high dose.. meh, I'm just rambling about nothing really. My sleep schedule has been sooooooo screwed up. I sleep from 6 pm to 12 am now. It's almost clockwork, I wake up coughing at the same time ever night for the past three nights. Weird.

mmmmmmmmmm tired

I have a renewed love of Motion City lately. Not sure why.

I'm hungry.

That is all.
Privacy: 6
Mood: disappointed